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Saturday, April 28, 2007

Song: Have you ever - S Club 7.

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over.
Knowing there's so much more to say.
Suddenly the moment's gone.
And all your dreams are upside down.
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round.

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody.
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry.
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby.
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking.
Lookin down the road you should be taking.
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go.

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together.
Back in your arms where I belong.
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found.
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round.

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody.
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry.
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby.
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking.
Lookin down the road you should be taking.
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go.

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels.
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see.
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow.
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round.

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody.
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry).
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby.

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking.
Lookin down the road you should be taking.
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let.
Yes I loved and lost the day I let.
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go.


GOD! THIS SONG MAKES ME CRY EVERYTIME.
I REALLY WISH I COULD MAKETHINGS RIGHT AGAIN.
IM REALLY SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 28, 2007

Thinking of: Something ah. Don't kaypooo (:
Song: Because you loved me - Celine Dion.
Mood: I want to taste you again please.

Sorry never blog fo a few days. Nothing much happened really till yesterday la. There's 4 new people in class and nackit they're so rude and disgusting and annoying. A few that is. Emmanuel is rude. Shen Le is disgusting. Okay so that's all for at day. Then yesterday, celebrated a class party for the April babies. Yeah. Was not fun at all. Stupid people made me serve them. Served a few and left class with nuggets. Ahaha. Then went home, changed clothes, went out to meet Azura:]. Hehhs. Azuraa:] pfft! Was raining abit though. Then it rained harder. Yeah was pretty cold la actually. Then I forgot that I brought the jacket. So yeah I freezed till half way and I put on the jacket after. Like wtf. Yeah la. Then when I wanted to leave ald, Azura:] made the stinkiest joke. Azura:] say go home later, then I say later my Daddy scold me. Then Azura:] sad I'm your Daddy. Ahaha. Still can taste and smell Azura:]. Then today nothing happened. Nackit! I'm cold for no wussing reason. But the sun is like so bright. Then called Fate last night. He was having problems with Deela. So yeah okay I talked to him and scolded him okay I adviced him too. So actuallywas supposedlyto go out with him today. But then I have to go to this somekind of stupid person related to Daddy. The baby got cukor jambol? Pfft! Whatever ah. Its in CCK! Then want to take cab? Confirm cannot fit la right! So I don' want to go ah. But then haven't say yet. If possible, I want to go buy for Azura:] a birthday present. I got 5 bucks from Bibik, 15 bucks from Daddy. Birthday money la kan. So yeah. I need to go Alex what I should get for Azura:]. I want to go give Azura:]'s present next Saturday. Azura:]'s birthay on Sunday. I'm so excited cause I'm going to buy something for Azura:]. Haha. So that's all la. I didn't chat with Azmir for like uh, 3 days? But he did text me. Hm.


I'm greatful for each day you give me.
Maybe I don't know that much,
But I know this much is true.
Shine in the dark,
Shining you love into my life.
Through the lies you were the truth.
My world is a better place because of you.
You saw the best there was in me.
You gave me faith cause you believed.

IM SO SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY!

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 28, 2007


Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Thinking of: How sweet life can get sometimes.
Song: My Yellow Blanket - Baby Bop.
Mood: Baby, lick my nose.

Fana cut herself today. Grr got me mad for abit. But couldn't take being mad at her for long. Pishhh! Haha, had to hug her. Hoho. So that's for mornings. Then during recess, ate chicken cutlet and coleslaw. SHE SPELT COLESLAW AS CALESLAW! Hahah! Then Fana came to wait with us. Then she went to buy for me and Steph and herself drinks first. We drank plain water instead of orange juice. Yay! We lost like 5 grams. Hahas. Than Farina fainted again. For like the umpteenth time that week? Yeah. So uh then we were like woah. AND THAT FREAKING KAO PEI SAID FREE SEX! Whatever ah.

Then for that stupid History class, we went to the library. Yes Azlan, my skewl has a library. Most skewls do?

Yeah played UNO again at night with Azmirrrrr! Wasn't so much fun though. Pfft! Sorry, my fault. The chocs just made me feel so mallow along with the rain. I guess I had the mood to love and not play tonight? Hm anyways. Nothing much to say.

Anyway,
Love,
Fana & Steph.

My Azmirr Dans.
When a man pledges.
It's like murder he wrote.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 25, 2007


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Thinking of: Songs to listen to.
Song: Goodnight goodnight - Hot hot heat.
Mood: Are you okay, Steph?

Hm. Steph's feeling down. Poor you. Its okay la. I'm here okay, FRIEND. Haha. So yeah. Azmirrr Dans broke his ankle (: Poor baby. I had so much to say but then I forgot. Haha.

OH OH OH! AZMIRR DANS LOST TO ME IN UNO! AHAHAHAHA! THEN HE WON. AHAHA!

Okay bye cos he finished updating and I lost.
Pfft!

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Thinking of: Should I play with my brother's hair wax and camwhore or act sick like I am?
Song: Oh Mandy - The Spinto Band.
Mood: Let's get horny cos its raining and cold.

I didn't go to school today! I swear, if I get barred from taking the exam, it wouldn't be a freaking surprise to me. I know I've been skipping school like alot. So yeah, let's all hope that Tasyaa gets expelled from that fooken school and get transferred to a better school with better friends who keep to their fucken words.

These stupid symptoms of young teenage friendship growing old. Gaaaah! Whatever la you. I have Azmirrr Dans & Sawah. So back to the point, I didn't go school cos of stupid stomach flu. Mr Kevin Ong gave me a freaking horny face and asked if I vomitted cos I was freaking pale and I vomitted twice. So I said I didn't vomit. Ah fuck it man! Don't tell me if I look pale! I don't like it!

So I couldn't even stand straight yesterday. Today was a pain too.

And Azmirr Dans is still at Sher's place. I hope you'll feel better soon, Sher. And go get some rest too ah, Azmirrr. I just hope I'm not like breaking a friendship okay? Oh God. Let's not talk about it. Sher, get well soon. I know how it feels. (: *(note to self)*

So I think I'd better run along now and go put some crazy clay on my hair and camwhore alot. Yeah. And it's raining with thunder and lightning and I almost shit my pants. I'm going to go now. Going. Miss Azmirrrr.


*(note to self: Take good care of Azmirrr as always for your own and Sher's sake.)*

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 24, 2007


Monday, April 23, 2007

Thinking of: Azmirrr Dans.
Song: The game is over - Nsync.
Mood: I want my Azmir Dans now.

Firdaus' sister wants to beat Steph up? She'd better beat me up before she gets to Steph okay? Fat woman! Grr! Tsk! I miss Azmir. How splendid. We didn't fight today. It's like things are getting better. And Boncet, I did appreciate it when you asked before you went to Sher's house. Like so much, I appreciate it. Thank you for compromising sweety. Ever since I started to share something , everything just seemed so light to me. Especially when you said that you wanted to be the one who ... Hey! You should know la okay? It's MY fantasy with Azmirrr Dans. Don't ask me why I call him Azmirrr Dans. I like it I guess. This is the life. I should hold on tight. I should be living what I have now and not moan and groan and grumble right? I'm stll trying to get it right. Hey, no matter how much I hate it, its still my life. (:

I'm sure you've heard these words before. And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more. You're afraid it all might end. And a broken heart is scared of breaking again. But you've got to believe me. I'll never leave you. You'll never cry long as I am there. And I will always be there. You will never be without love.

I don't mind being a loner in school anymore. Its good for me too. It taught me a lesson, and it's giving me another chance to live. When I'm all alone, I have time to think before I do something. And it seems, since the day I learnt to live on my own, things have been going okay. I have so many things to live for. And one of them is for a guy that I've loved since the day we had something to share. And no forgetting I'm still living and still havig hopes for a friend I used to love with all my heart and soul; more than I ever loved a guy in my life. But now that she's gone, I have Azmirr Dans to give all my love to. This is simply splendid. A not perfect life. And family which I have to give my love to. And I don't mean Mom & Dad family. I meant my other family. The family I love. Let's name a few hm? :
Azmirr Dans,
(N***e),
Sawah,
Teeaaraa,
Fate,
Cassandra,
Sofi,
Steph,
Fana,
Era,
Haikel,
Dee,
Ash,
Andrew?,
Alyff?,
DRIS,
WEI KAI!

Gaaah! I can go on like forever and never end. So till here, people, I love you like woah.


BYE.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 23, 2007

Thinking of: AZMIRRR DANS!
Song: 19 stars - Meg & Dia.
Mood: Baby swing me.

School was quite okay. Very okay. Till that breastless megazoid came and made me, Mai, Belle, Nabee stand becus of our hair accessory. I had a BLACK clip with a SILVER circle, Mai had a Red hair band, Belle had Green and Nabee has urh Red? So being the smartest class, we were in front of everyone and I mean everyone. Ahaha. We didn't bother so much actually. We stood up and even talked while standing. Ahaha.

So enough about that fuck. We played boggle. Pfft! It sucked. But my class won in the 2nd round. I got two Kit Kats! Yay!

Then my stomach ache came again. Like fuckkkkk! I felt like I was giving birth to quadruplets while walking and doing jumping jacks. Grr.

OKAY MY DARLING SNOW WHITE CANNOT WAIT FOR ME TO UPATE.

SO TILL HERE (:

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 23, 2007


Sunday, April 22, 2007

Thinking of: How stupid I am.
Song: Through with love - Destiny's Child.
Mood: Someone save me?

Was so happy about meeting Azmir today. Got so excited. I waited so patiently. For 5 hours, I didn't mind the wait. I'd wait for forever for you. Till I found out you were only pretending? You pitied me. I don't like pities. You're doing to me what I did to Amin. I learnt my lesson. I gave up everything I could to have you. I gave up being friends with Zacky, deleting all the boys who aren't important in my msn, I stopped accepting boys' friend requests, I didn't reply to any boys' comments, and I didn't talk to any of my friends to avoid listening to all the bad things about you and I was forced to think hell was a place called home. You even swore to Sarah. Jesus. You really hate me don't you?

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 22, 2007

Thinking of: The best ways to apologize.
Song: Runaway love - Mary J. Blige feat Ludacris.
Mood: Sad and crying as always.

Amin did it again. Only this time, to me with the help of the love if my life. Omg Amin, you didnt have to do it at this time. I was really falling in love. I know what I did to you seemed heartless but you cannot make me lose my love everytime I fall in love. You got me real bad and you made me lose the people I love 3 times now. What more do you want? I'd rather you take my life and beat me up. I don't want to live if every love is going to end up this way. Amin, please,I'm begging you. I know what I did. I still want to apologize to your mom. But I'm so embarrased. God, I lost so many people around my birthday. First was Aqil, then Nabee, then Azmir, then my Aunty. Why did the people that I loved so much go at a time like this. Especially when I don't have a life. God, I'm only 14. I know you don't want me to live. So just take my life. No one wants me. Please, I want to runaway. Will someone runaway with me? Please? I can't live on my own. I need to cry. You know what, these are my problems. Why should I make anyone else runaway with me? They didn't do anything. I've got problems till my eyeballs till they're spilling out everywhere. Please please please, I want something good to happen somewhere. Just one thing please. Just one small thing to keep on making me hope for more good things. Please? I don't want to live anymore. Can I runaway? No one understands me. No one wants to keep me and love me. Why am I even here crying every night? There's no point to live and see the world. I'd rather be blind.

No love here,
Me.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 22, 2007


Saturday, April 21, 2007

Thinking of: What to where tomorrow.
Song: Before I fall in love - Coco Lee.
Mood: Wtf.

I wanted to go with Steph and Azmir and go meet Teeaaraa today. Budden mommy said we're going to Aunt Nana's place to celebrate my birthday. Turned out she lied. We went here to do nothing. WTF! At least the kids bought me something. Things for me to study too I guess? Hm yeah.

So tml, I'm going out with Azmir. He wants to fetch me from under my block. Oh how sweet. Then we're going to meet Teeaaraa. Hms. Thanks for the gift yeah love? I'll love it I swear (:

Ryan Phique.
Azura Michelle.

Cute right?

So yeah. I can't wait for Azmir's present tml. He bought a necklace, with a real ring on it! Like woah. So expensive. Then kan, he even engraved our initials on it. Aw man. You're really nice pretty(:

I'll blog more soon.
Bye.

Love,
me (:

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 21, 2007


Friday, April 20, 2007

Thinking of: How sucky-er my Birthday can get.
Song: No song playing.
Mood: Through the rain - Mariah Carey.


Birthday today. Its even worst than a normal day. Classmates are bullshit. Friends are okay. Nabee? Well she's just Nabee.

School was normal. Got chased by that freaking moth again in Maths class. Did a tribal dance. Nabee had her own tribal dance too. Mr. Jamal made the whole class sing a birthday song. I couldn't care less. I just walked out of the class. And came back in when they finished their little sing-along- session.

CCA was okay. I guess. Board Of Directors wished me. Thanks guys. Then only thing that made me smile even abit was Edward getting a wedgie in front of me. Thanks Omar.

Walked home and cried the whole walk through. Lucky I had someone to accompany me. My Barney.

So yeah. Got home, bathed, jumped into boxers, do all those "THANK YOU!!"s to the people who wished me a happy birthday that isnt so happy.

Little brother wished me happy birthday and gave me a sharpener. So yeah. The present I got today was a sharpener. I should be happy cos I now have something to sharpen my pencils with?

Yeah. I didn't see Mdm Norain for counselling after school today. I was so sad and I cried so much I couldn't face her. I'll see you on Monday during recess. I promise. I need someone to talk to anyway. And the person I count on isn't here anymore.

Well the hardest part of the day today was in school ad at home. During guitar lessons. I can't listen to people who sing songs to celebrate something I don't wish would ever come again. Especially when it comes every year. When I heard Mai say," Eh, Nabila nangis." I just went blank and turned. I pushed her to one side and tried my very best to comfort her. Wanted to hug her but then my mind hit me. It just said back off, she told you to fuck off. Don't make it worst for her. So I just accompanied her till Mai came. Then I sat at another place with Steph and all after we came back from 7-11. Then when they left, I sat all alone. Waited for people to call but no one did. So yeah. The most fucked day is today.



AZMIRRRR<3

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Friday, April 20, 2007


Thursday, April 19, 2007

School was okay I guess. MT freaking fun laaaaa. Sat with Novia and Amelia. I showed Amelia how I slit wrists and arms. We were doing practical and not theory. And she almost vomitted at the blood. Ahaha. See Mel, should have never asked me that question. Talked about sex and splitting condoms. Come on Mel, having sex and taking it out before the sperms come out are as good as wearing a condom that would split. Isn't it? Then I learnt to speak Indon. Gue ingin bisa bicara kayak Mel dan Nov. (:



Counting the days,
second after second.
Let everyone know,
Myself; I'm all alone now.
The white moments,
they'll never have another chance.
All that I ask is sincerity from you.
Not another poem.
Just erase your sacrificed sensation.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Thursday, April 19, 2007


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I LOST MY PARENTS' TRUST.
I LOST MY FRIENDS.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, I LOST AZMIR AND NABEE.
FOREVER.
HE BEGGED ME TO GO AWAY.
SHE TOLD ME TO FUCK OFF.
I CRIED TILL I VOMIT.

I CRIED BECUS I LOST TWO LOVES IN ONE DAY.
I CRIED BECUS I MISS MY OLD NABILA.
I CRIED BECUS I WAS BEGGED TO LEAVE.
I CRIED BECUS I AM SUPER SCARED TO VOMIT.
I CRIED BECUS I DON'T WANT TO LOOK ANY PALE-ER
I CRIED BECUS ITS ALL HAPPENING 2 DAYS BEFORE MY BDAY.

AND I'LL CRY BECUS NO ONE IS THERE TO COMFORT ME TOMORROW WHEN I HIDE AND CRY.
NO ONE AT ALL.


THANK GOD. YOU'VE MADE IT ALL GOOD.
AND SAWAH, THIS ISNT A FAIRYTALE.
NOTHING CAN CHANGE IN TWO DAYS.
NOTHING. I NEED A MIRACLE IF ITS GOING TO HAPPEN.




AND AFTER IT ALL, IM STILL CRYING.
AZMIR DON'T TELL ME YOU LOVE ME.



AND THE FREAKING BLOG SONG IS MAKING ME CRY HARDER.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 18, 2007


Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I wonder why, these days I tend to get pretty tired and restless. Teeaaraa seems to be going somewhere with Zailani. They're so sweet together. The she misses the he and tells me, and the he misses the she and tells me. Aww man, you guys are sooo sweet (to each other). Wish it was that way. I got he honours of being in the centre or two people in love. I get to be the audience of such love. Teeaaraa did advice me though.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 17, 2007



























Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 17, 2007


Monday, April 16, 2007

Thinking of: To smile or not to smile.
Song: 19 stars.
Mood: Learning-how-to-be-emotional-smart kind of mood.


The rules of EQ.
Emotional Quotation:

Doing things for yourself.
Practice makes perfect. (NOT)
Understanding the brain-body-behaviour connection.
Examine your emotions.
Label your emotions.
Distinguish between fact and feeling.
Reflect and evaluate.
Seek feedback.
Accept feedback with good grace.
Identify your priorities.
Write your eulogy.
Discover your vision.
Break the linkage.
Challenge automatic negative thoughts.
Put it into perspective.
Manage physical sensations and symptoms.
Recite personal affirmations.
Take a problem-solving approach.
Make a list.
Visualize success.




OMFG! I CANNOT CONTINUE! ITS JUST HURTING ME SO BADLY OKAY NABEEEE! SO STOP IT!

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 16, 2007

Thinking of: AZMIRRRR.
Song: Meg and Dia - 19 stars.
Mood: NO MOOD.

I'm not eating today. I have no mood. Though my tummy's screaming for food, my heart knows I need love more. I shan't eat till I get at least a speck of love from someone. Just a speck will do.


WARNING: ANNIE TENDS TO ASK FOR MORE.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 16, 2007

Thinking of: Life.
Song: 19 stars - Meg and Dia.
Mood: Simply Sad.


It would help if you actually asked. No one bothered to ask. Really, no one.

Nabee: Gets mad, and doesn't say anything.
Sawah: Gets mad, and CAPS LOCK me.
Azmir: Tells me I'm pale cos I cut myself.
Mom & Dad: Calls me stupid and dog respectively.

I swear, I'd have to cry on my birthday.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 16, 2007

Thinking of: Piercing my lip back again for the eleventh time thank you.
Song: Nineteen stars - Meg and Dia.
Mood: Lethargic, Pain, Hurt, Anger, Confusion, High.


Went to school today. But then, wasn't feeling quite okay. It was alright in the bus. Then I saw Steph and Faa waiting and didn't see Nabee. So I went down and waited. Then Era came. She took 21 today. She walked towards us and I saw a stupid bitchyfook. AFINI! She coloured her brows black? Like woman, you look worst than Kajol having one eyebrow. So we were all like wtf? Okay so we waited. Then Nabee didn't turn up. I thought she would come to school later. So we went to school first. By then, I was feeling abit like out of mood cos I did want a hug. Hm! When w reached school, she wasn't there either. So since I was from a different class, we went our seperate ways. The one where Nabee was always there to walk with me. So I continued waiting. By the time Ms Ee bitchfuck came, I wrote Nabee as absent. And at that point of time, I lost my mood. Felt so sick. WALAO! I MISS NABEE LIKE ALOT SIAAAAAAK! (more than I missed cutting myself.) I need you like more that you need yourself saaaah.

To clear it all, to make things better, everytime you see a slit on me, don't get mad and vent your anger on me. Did you ever try to ask why before you got mad at me like hell and not talk to me for the whole day and curse me in your blog? It really does help when I know someone's there to listen to me and my horse cum problems. It really does. So don't go fucking me and hating me altogether and running back to your ex-bestfriend, (yes the one that you hated me with last year), without asking why I cut myself? It really means alot for someone to ask me. I'm just going to shut up and cry the whole day on my birthday. Hopefully then you'll ask me why. I tried to get your attention from like since day one. But sadfuck,I only got it for a few months. 3 months that is. And then again, Mai would be the centre of your attention. Probably when you're having your I'm-a-nice-person days, we'd talk about this and you'll see me cry. Would you understand me then? I' not being Emo or the sake of being Emo. If I'm going to lose one of my family members because of being Emo,then I quit being Emo. My friends taught me he meaning of being a family. Ask me when I've eaten. Having each other's backs. Sitting at the stairs and comforting one of us because of one bitchfuck boy. Crying together, laughing together. That really taught me. But now, you think I'm trying to have my revenge on you? I don't want revenge. Why would I? I learnt how to forgive. But I won't forget for sure. Having revenge on you would just give me something back. So don't tell me you're done for. I need you still. And don't put the Rawr-ers into this. Ask Sawah. I cried and told her everything about you. She just says everything will be okay. She says you care. I don't want to liten to that. I've been listening to those for 13 years and 359 days. I need to see it to believe it. So when you really show me you care, when you ask, properly, only then will it feel like I'm in love again.

Everyone get's so into the Wtf-Sia-Tasya-Cut-Herself-Cos-Of-Something-Stupid-And-Make-Me-Mad kind of mood. But they never asked why. So don't go around telling me you love me. telling me you care when you're just there for pretend.



PAIN.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 16, 2007

Thinking of: Azmir, Family, Problems.
Song: Telephone - Mocca.
Mood: My-Friends-Taught-Me-What-Family-Means kind of Mood.


Life's stupid. My friends really taught me the meaning of love. I know what family means when I'm with them. I feel like I'm with my enemies when I'm at home. I don't like to call it home either. Being outside with friends feel like I'm on the arms of Love. I want to go stay with Granny. That's final. Granny, I'm going to stick to you after I talk to Mdm Norain. So that's settled. All that's left is to make Mdm Norain expel me from school. Then I'd be better off at Broadrick Sec. Though it's like the most jahat-est school, I don't kno anyone there. And neither do they know me. So it rocks (: Granny lives at Dakota Cresent. Very near to Town. (((((:

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 16, 2007


Sunday, April 15, 2007

Until the day I can't breathe anymore, just know who I live life for. Once you're born, you're just waiting to die.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 15, 2007

Thinking of: Azmir and Sawah (:
Song: She will be loved - Maroon 5.
Mood: Stupid.


I've got nothing to add. Days have let me speechless in my story. I only ran to a place to drop my worries. You're another character in my chapters. And we were supposed to have a happy ending okay? HAPPY ending.

Was fun at Aunt Nana's place. I was so childish. We played games like "Mi Mi Mi", "Popeye the sailor man" and my personal favourite, "Set Set Set". Here's how it goes:


Set set set, mi mi mi.
Air pasang pagi surut pukul 5,
Nyonye bangun pagi,
Siram pokok bunga.
Pokok bunga melur tanam tepi pantai,
Itik bertelur,
Ayam menetas.
Cik Barber, jatuh dalam parit,
Cik Minah, datang tolong tarik.
Cik Barber, upah satu ringgit.
Cik Minah, beli kain songket.
Kek kek kek,
Kueh Bangkit.
Siape bergerak kene geletek.


Was freaking fun I tell you. I bought a dress too. Azmir thought it would look good on me. First time wearing a dress. Wowiee! I'm wearing the dress right now. Would be going out soon. Hm. I hope I don't look funny in it. Where I'm going is anybody's guess.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 15, 2007


Friday, April 13, 2007

Thinking of: Azmir & Sawah.
Song: Incomplete - BSB.


Been so boring la lately. Yesterday I didn't attend school. Apparently, I was sick. So here I am posting while waiting for my parents to come down. Hm. Not so embarassing but I do go to school with them. Hoho. My parents? Simply good actors. Just nothing to say about them. I dotno why I didn't post last night when alot of things were happening. Well, I won't post about it. Cos it was the past okay? OMGAY. <--- AZMIR LOOK (:

So urh, I'm not going to IC today. I'm going outs. People are coming down to fetch me soon. So I guess I better not like run late out of class or something. Okay I'm done with my announcements and I should go drag my parents down. Bye.


P.s. : I miss JAJA like woahhhhh.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Friday, April 13, 2007


Thursday, April 12, 2007

Hello scumbag. Im at Pasir Ris. Hohoho. Supposedly to be having make up classes. But Mami Shikin has a computer what right. So I use laaaa (: Then urh nothing else. Sawah is at White Sands with Fatin & Haz. I dotno who but yeah? I have the urge to go there laaaa. But I have to ask mommy first. Cos I'm sick right? Hm hm hm.

So Sawah told me that Fatin & Haz are two crazy people? Hm yeah like me. But I shy laaaa. I want to sneak out and go see her okay? And be back before mommy knows.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Thursday, April 12, 2007


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I NEED TO GO DO SURVEY FOR STUFFS.

BAND TEES.
SHORT DRESSES.
LONG TIGHTS.
NECKLACES.
SHOELACES.
BELTS.
BELT BUCKLES.
JEANS.
HAIR SHOPS.
CLIPS.
PINS & BADGES.
SIDE BAGS.
BIRTHDAY PRESENTS.
KNICKERS.
BOXERS.
PANTIES.
AND THOSE TINY ONES.
NEW BLOUSES.
BANGLES.
EAR RINGS.
LAURA PAIGE EYELINER.



I NEED A JOB QUICK!
HOLIDAYS FASTER COME.
I HAVE A JOB TO DO.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Annie thinks she should try going around Singapore like a tourist. Cos I don't know Singapore. Ahaha. I dotno what busses to take. So I'll go around Singapore in shorts and sneakers and a racerback and a big big backpack filled with food. Anyone wants to tag along? We'll go as son as possible okayyyyy. I'll go alone if ya'll don't want to come along. It'll just add to my tourist look. Hohoho. 3rd April 2007. Yeay!

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I know I stand in line. Until you think you have the time. To spend an evening with me. And if we go some place to dance. I know that there's a chance. You won't be leaving with me. Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place. And have a drink or two. And then I go and spoil it all. By saying something stupid. Like I love you. I can see it in your eyes. You still despise the same old lines. You heard the night before. And though it's just a line to you. For me it's true. And never seemed so right before. I practice every day to find some clever lines to say. To make the meaning come true. But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late. And I'm alone with you. The time is right. Your perfume fills my head The stars get red. And oh the night's so blue. And then I go and spoil it all. By saying something stupid. Like I love you.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I'm so sorry! I promised to eat Maggi all week but then, I'm tired of Maggi. Then I remembered the KFC and the Pizza Hut in the fridge. So I ate it DUH. I changed my Friendster username. TheAnnie Theory. Sounds shitty. But its temporary I guess. Till I found something else. Will someone tell me what's Melodramatic? I shall find out myself if nobody knows.

Let's see. So we plan to go tanning at Sentosa one of these hot days. Belle's coming in nothing but a bikini(: She's a confirmed. Confirmed to get raped by me and Jaja. Im coming in knickers or maybe just one of my Indie panties and a tube. (: Jaja's coming in the boxers I gave her and spagetthi straps. That I can tell (: We'll go during the holidays. After me and Jaja get home from court that is. So court would be in the morn and in the noon, we'll head to sentosa. Hms. Jaja, bring my shoe for me. Kay thanks. I want to skinny dip? Haha.

So my nails are like long. Pretty to me too. I'll paint them Black on one hand and White on the other. Or, i'd paint them alternately on both hands. Or just a thin black strip that goes through the centre of the nail with white dots on it. Or should i do BnW stripes? Hm will have to ask Jaja about it. She's the nail queen. So Jaja after you read, tell me your opinion(:

Okay I miss Azmir and Sawah and Jaja like aloooot.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Annie didn't go to school today. Been breathing acryllic dust for two days straight for two hours. Thanks for almost killing me Mr Yeo. Go close down your workshop if you talk about safety all the freaking time and we kids aren't safe at all. Pfft! Teachers these days. Jaja didn't go to school either. Same sickness as me. She got infected by me. Sorrrraye! So she's going to blog her Garu down in Ripple. Drop the topic(:

So urh Sawah and Azmir took care of me in the night last night. Though I can't like type so quickly cos I was so freaking weak and restless and my eyes were closed they were there through the night. Azmir took the first shift. He handled the first few twilight hours. Sawah got it under control in the morning after 12. Man I'm sorry I fell sick and you guys had to be there and wait till I replied to your messages. Then Azmir kept an eye on me by texting me in the morning (: Wonder if he's in school. Oh and yes yes Dear, I'd love to stay with you (: Hm. I miss you ald Sweeeety.

I miss Sawah too. Need to thank her later on. I was wondering whether I should get a birthday present for her together with Azmir (HER BEST BUDDY! hoho) or buy for her something on my own. I was thinking of maybe getting her a big I ♥ YOU thing. I know where. But I need to like save like alottttttt! Then on 8th Sept I needto buy a bag of liprings. Two actually. One for Dee and one for me. And I need to buy alot of chocolates too. That's for Jaja. She wants tonnes of chocolate so yeah I'll get you your chocs too. Go get horny with Nic and make sure he treats me to MacDonald's yeah Jaja?

I FELL IN ♥ WITH A LOVER AND FRIENDS. I guess this is an Up season in my Majority-of-Downs life. We don't see this happen so often now do we? Well okay. I need to lose like 1.8 kg. But since I'm sick, I'll put it to a big advantage and not eat. The miracles of falling sick. Your weight falls too. So I'm having Maggi for the whole week. I'll try to not eat in school though. But tomorrow has Chicken / Fish Chop and Mashed Potatoes. Oooooh! I'll try to listen to Shyam yeah (:




43 more days.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Tuesday, April 10, 2007

RAN 2.4.
CHEATED.
PASSED.
FRIEND TO FRIEND.
OPEN TALKING METROSEXUALS.
SHORT DICKED PREFECT.
HUGGED.
SICK.
WHEEZING.
RUNNING NOSE.
COUGH.
HEADACHE.
MUSCLE CRAMPS.
TIRED.
DRUGGED FACE.
AZMIRRRR!
CAM-WHORED.
KFC CRISPY CHICKEN.
CONFUSED.
LIED.
OKAY DONE.


Mommy, Annie is sorry.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Hello. Nothing much to say. Annie, will you please say grace? Yes nanny.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 10, 2007


Sunday, April 8, 2007

I want to change school. That school sucks. Can I go to a school where I don't know anyone? And leave Bedok North and Bedok Town Sec out of question. So many in Damai too. Mom, can I change school? My friends don't need me anymore. I just ruin their lives. Please mom? If you don't want to change my school, can I get myself expelled? Please? All we have to do is just buy new uniforms. If you don't want to buy them for me, then its fine. I'll buy them with my money. I'll save money okay? And when I have enough for the different books they use and the few uniforms I need, will you please change my school? Im really having problems there. Daddy, you wanted to move house right? Can we please do so earlier? My friends still don't know about it. I want to move and don't ever tell my friends there. I'll just disappear from that school okay? Please mom? Please dad? Even better, can I run away from home? Can I? Just please? Can I live with granny and move house too? Id be contented with that. I'd still be happy even if you don't send me money. Just don't call granny's house ever when I've moved. You're the reason I want to run away. So much for friends and family. Oh and I can goto Broadrick Sec too. I don't know anyone there right? And it's jut beside granny's house. Please please. Granny, come let me live with you. Convince my parents please granny. Tell my parents to not send money. Tell them to not visit me. I don't want to see them at all. And granny if you don't want me, just send me to that place for naughty girls. I'm so naughty you guys hate me isn't it? I'm so nauy my friend feel uncomfortable going out with me. I'm just plain big trouble. So just kick me out of the use. Just do so. I'll go live with Daddy's side. They're as "NAUGHTY" as me aren't they daddy? So that makes them family.

I have no connection with my family! Everyone sits together as a family. Even that baby boy. And all I o is sit in front of the laptop all day. They piss me off with one word and I'll just drag myself up to my room. There's nothing sad about it. It happens everyday. Its daily drug. I wake up and go school. Come home late and just sit in front of the computer all day. Mom comes home, and I avoid her every night by just going up to my room. I'll lock myself up in the room till I sleep. And t just starts over. Im dropping Interact Club. I don't care if Wei Kai drops and makes me VP. If I can't even Interact with my friends properly, what' the use of being the VP in Interact Club. I'll go see Mdm Norain tomorrow morning. I'm really needing conselling. I need t badly. I'll talk to Cik Sahara too. Maybe even to my mom. Just maybe. I don't feel comfortable with my mom. I'll just stick to Mdm Norain and Cik Sahara. Probably Fate too. He'd understand me when I cry. I just hope I don't cry when I talk about this to these people. What the fuck am I saying? Im so going to cry. But I still don't want to.


imgoingtoslitmyselftonight.darlingdontmissmewhenidie.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 08, 2007

Its raining right now. And it just makes me smile everytime it rains. i just hope its not raining cos my dearly beloved is crying. Sawah, you crying? Azmir, how bout you? Cassandrawr, you okay? Sofi, if you are, stop crying. I came back after a long holiday without a camera. Well no, as you can see below, the camera rocks like shit!

I have nothing more to say. (:

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 08, 2007



















Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 08, 2007


Saturday, April 7, 2007

I just got back from Pasir Ris. Like hoho. Was funny shit in the lorry. Hair all over and under. I get slapped by own hair. But its okay. Thoughts of Azmir clears it all (: Then we ate at As-Shalihin? I dotno how to pronounce that. I ate Mee Goreng Kerang. Kerangs are so the sex (: Then we got a free bowl of Kerangs. And like hoho I finished it up (: Oh we had Calamaris too. Another sex in my life. Then we went home and we shouted at people at the traffic lights and bus stops. We got the finger twice. HOHO! Then I got home and Azmir BOO~! -ed me. So I was very happy I diden want to go bathe. Then I chatted wih dear Sawah. She called me later in the night. Poor baby. I love her like aloooot. Then Azmir texted me. He was sooo sleepy. Like hoho. Now I'm alone at night having a big fight with Aqil. Like hello. Dont try to be sarcastic please.



MEN THESE DAYS.

" Life was never about women. We're just living Barbies. The ugly looking Kens are actually what life is about. It was never about women. It was always about men. They make the choices and make us feel bad. Tsk Tsk. Men..."
- MY MOM.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 07, 2007

Its like seven am now. And no I'm not asleep yet. Tv shows were boring so I cranked up some shows. I watched JackAss2. I still like it though the gazillion times I've watched it. It still cracks me up. Silly old shows. Making my day like it does. Yesterday was Good Friday. And boy did it start badly. Both my hands were like tortured. Left hand has glass on it. And my right wrist sort of like got kicked by my brother while we were Thai Boxing. The big brother to be exact. So I got fired up and started kicking him back. Down he went. HoHoHo. Don't you just love your brothers when you're the only rose among all the 3 thorns. Its lovely to know that the world's stupid. It really is. Then Good Friday ended. It dropped me a gift along the way. A priceless gift. I guess it was an advanced bday gift from God. Thank You for not forgetting me here. Now I'm filled with love. I now have a CLOWNY CUTE SUPERHERO to call my own. Isn't life wonderful? I guess I'm all psyched out about this I still can't sleep. Well I had fun advicing Cassandrawr all along. And messed with Akiff too. It was a great day over all.



" I don't know, love. My heart says so. I guess I fell for your cuteness and adorable-ity, just the way you are makes me smile. Everytime I talk to you, I just think about you and forget the world! "

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 07, 2007

AZMIR IS LOVE <3 color="#ff0000">LOVE <3 color="#ff0000">LOVE <3.
BUT MY RAWR-ES ARE ABIT MORE SAYANG-ED BY ME.
YOU DON'T MIND RIGHT TAYANG? I STILL LOVE YOU (:


HOHOHO.
THANKS TO SAWAH FOR THE ADVICES ALL THIS WHILE.
THANKS SOFI FOR LAYAN-I MY STUPIDITY ALL THIS WHILE.
THANK TO CASS FOR HAVING SOMEONE TO COMPLAIN TO EVERY NIGHT ALL THIS WHILE.



YOU'D HAVE TO GET THROUGH ME BEFORE YOU GET TO THEM.
theyre my sayangs. INCLUDING AZMIRRRRR DEAR!

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Saturday, April 07, 2007


Friday, April 6, 2007

Today is known as Fucking Good Friday. I don't know why. It's not good at all. I have broken shards of glass on my palms and hands. Don't ask why. I explained the whole story to Azmir, Cassandrawr and Sarawr ald. Im lazy to explain again. Thank You for being so good, Good Friday.







AZMIR <3

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Friday, April 06, 2007


Thursday, April 5, 2007

OKAY WORLD,GOD, FRIENDS, FAMILY, EVERYONE. I REALLY GIVE UP OKAY! YOU WIN! HAPPY!? YOU WIN!

FROM NOW ON, ALL MY LIFE IS ABOUT CRYING OVER BOYS OKAY! I REALLY GIVE UP. I REALLY HAVE NO HOPE. YOU WINNNNNNNN! THERE YOU GO! YOU WIN.

SO WHO'S UP TO CONTROL MY LIFE AND TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

and now that all my friends are in skewl, im left here to cry all by myself.
so then, i give up now.
okay no ones going to ever be able to open my door and pull me back up again.
not even the efforts of Jaja or Sarawr or Alyff or anyone else.

IF I HAD MY RAZOR BLADE, I WOULD HAVE CUT MYSELF.
BUT NOOO. I JUST HAD TO LOSE IT.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Thursday, April 05, 2007

Annie pierced her lip back today. She got a new hole actually. She moved the hole abit upwards (: So it will swollen tml. But its okay (: She would stay home. Nyeaaaha. Diden go skewl today. Walao I totally forgot about NAPFA test. But nvm laa. I shall do it with those who failed.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Thursday, April 05, 2007


Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Okay I just woke up. And I'm freaking cranky. The world is a cunt. And the computer is a prostitute laaa! I don't want all you fucking msn-ers to send me that fucking "photo-album" virus then get mad at me cos I cursed the fuckshit out of you. Then you have the cheek to deny i was virus?! Your mum must've hated you geek! Walao! Im chattig with Sofirawr and the msn jammed? Fuck things laaa!

My parents are pissing me off too (: Mom sits at the com and wants to use the comp and watch AI at the same time. I changed the channel and she gets mad!? Walao and i changed back o find out JDI finished. THANKS MOM! BIG HELP!!!

And now, Sofirawr's being a darling counselling me. I really don't want to cut my wrists anymore. My friends worry too much. And my dearest friend doesn't want to feel so dear anymore. I miss my old Jaja. I thought the hug we had would save it all. It just makes me drad for more.

So then my parents bug my life again. For goodness sake, i don't want to listen to you! I'm wearing headphones here! Yes I know JDI is on tv! Walao! Don't you see my scrunched up eyebrows!!!

200 CAN SUCK COCK LA! WALAO!
I NEED A FRIEND. A TRUE FRIEND WHO WOULD WATCH ME CRY!

I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS AND CRY.
I DONT WANT TO BLEED!
MY FRIENDS WONT WORRY ANYMORE.
IVE CAUSED SHIT IN THIS WORLD.
I WONT CONTINUE THIS.
ANNIE HAS LEFT THE BUILDING.


You know Alyff, my heart sank so deep and it wouldn't come up.
What you said this morning repeatedly just breaks me piece by piece.
"Dris come back for me okay. Don't come back for anyone else."
If she means so much to you, I guess I should learn to open my eyes and move on.
Dris is a friend. And I don't want to spoil it for you like some people do.
I was smiling when I saw you smile. It just attracts a smile on me when you smile.
And when you said those words, I almost cried okay!
And you said it so many times too, Alyff.
And you sounded very professional laughing an giggling making it sound very easy for you.
Damn Alyff, I really want it that much.
I just hope Jaja would be there to hug me and tell me whats right when I cry tomorrow.
Jaja please. He's your bestfriend.
You understand him more. You understand everyone more. Make me understand please.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Went to the airport today. Was late so grabbed a cab. Yes Annie paid for it. Then me an Jaja went all over Terminal One to find Dris. She was like no where in sight. But it was the correct flight. So me and Jaja jogged our way to Terminal Two to fetch Alove Aiya cannot come by himself. But okay. So then me and Jaja again jogged our way back. And the best Alove could do was like skipped a step or two? Then by the time we got to Terminal One, the gate was closed. We ran to the departure window. Dris no where to be found. So then Jaja spotted Sheilaa. So we went with her. Too, she diden see Dris. Then we saw this Skoot look alike. They were friends of Dris too. Then Alove began being annoying by bugging the shit out of Jaja by saying bye to Dris who wasn't even there. And he was making Nabee feel worst.

Then, Alove got a phone call. He was on the phone at 7.15 am? With who you ask? About to find out kay? Then we were laughing when we saw this MatRep walking by Alove's side. So I squinted and tadaa! It was Eddie Kepe. Jaja's worst nightmare. Then we hid under pamphlets. Hohoho. So then, we went to Terminal Two to have Macs. Just because our Abang Diploma/Master dident have Macs for awhile.

Then I spotted this guy SLing with this other guy. HOT MAN! Others like Sheilaa just thought it was gross. And other even weird people diden even see.

So we ate. And Sheilaa blanja-ed. Thank You! Then Jaja sat in front of Alove. Very close la. Then Sheilaa sat in front of Eddie. And I got the best seat in the world. In front of Alove's bag which he loaned to Eddie. Wtf sia. I sat there keeping quiet (: How decent.

So okay. Went to order food. And again Jaja stood behind Alove. Okay la I kept quiet the whole trip through. Then we got our meals. I ate in silence and the rest talking about Andrew, Asrul, Global Warming and etc. And all I did was put my butter on my Sausage McMuffin. So then I played with my hp. And Jaja claimed that Alove was constantly looking at me! WTF! I love playing that game okay. Dont say a word (:

So then me, Jaja and Sheilaa went out to have a puff or two. (Okay la! The whole stick.) Then the two Abang Diplomas sat aside. Then we finished it and we made our way home. Alove and Eddie and Sheilaa went out to go meet Asrul. And me and Jaja made our way back to skewl. Stupid sey. We changed at Eunos MRT Stats.

We went back to skewl and everything was back to normal. We just missed English. (: Then I wrote Alove's real name all over my world.

Thats All for now.
BYES.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 04, 2007


Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Times are getting hard. Every simple guy whom just like Arif, simply sweeps me off my feet. Though he did held me by the waist without even knowing me.. I think he's nice. You took my number and just kept quietttttt? You know, it's really hard for me to like guess and wait for you to top-up your phone. Im not a mind reader tau. So do like tell me when you're on it okay? And do go home please. Stop hiding and running away from your family lar Arif. If youre having problems, hey, I'm always here okay? See what you did to me? You got me falling all over the place. I know. I am desperate for a boyf. But you know, we should be friends first okay? And to tell you the truth, I was sooo touched when you said the MCR trademark was you and me. Man that was some hell of a bloody romance. Then when I left, you actually moved me and said to send regards to my parents. You're dear to me too I guess. And Fate is a pain in the ass for not helping (:

Okay so then today was ugly. I remembered me and Jaja doing a tribal dance in class cos we were chased by a big freaking moth. And today, I got chased by one again while I was buffing my workpiece in the Inno Block.

Then wentto KFC at opposite CS with Mai and Jaja. Yes Mai. Jaja's ex darling. Okay yes I am jealoused. Shall avoid doing that in the near future.

So Im afraid year 2oo7 has been a sucky year. I guess 7 just isn't my number.


ANNIE LOVES EU.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Tuesday, April 03, 2007


Monday, April 2, 2007

God, help Annie your slave please. Everyone is falling in love. God, did you forget me? I hope not. I'll sit right here and wait okay? Do come quick. I need love. Thank You. Don't turn your back on me now okay?

I need you like.. So much.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 02, 2007

the jerk
at the soda fountain
leaks in her hand
nailed on the door
MEN OUT OF ORDER
her body
curved on a couch
a smile
ZIPPED UP
IN HER JEANS
HIS GENES
SPRING RAIN
YOUR BODY IN ME
SCARED STIFF
PAYING FOR CONDOMS
WITH A RUBBER CHECK
NUDE BEACH
NOTHING NEW
UNDER THE SUN
ORAL SEX
THE POLITICIAN
SPEECHLESS
MAKING LOVE
THE JACK-O-LANTERN ALSO
GRINS IN THE DARK
SHADOWS MOVING
ON THE BEDROOM WALL
A PUMPKIN'S EYESj
MY NAME
DROWNED
ON HER TONGUE
SMELL OF RED SNAPPER
THE SHEET'S WHITENESS
A HANDFUL OF LOVE
HER HIPS
SWING AHEAD
OF HIS TASTE
PREGNANCY
GUESSING THE TECHNIQUE
RELATIVES SMILE
HER CRY
MOUTH AND TEETH


SOPRANO IN LOVE

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 02, 2007

I had a bad day i guess. Had rehearsals in the morning. Nothing fascinating la. Then I had recess. Just like every other day. Then I got a 8/10 in a Maths Quiz. The previous one I had like a freaky zero that would wink at me and make me cry. So well done Annie. *Pats own back*.

Wore a bear mask that Abang gave me in class today. I drew Sarawr, Nabee, Sofirawr and Cassandrawr on my arm big big today. I guess I love my girlfs than I do my any of my boyfs.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 02, 2007

I want you. I need you. But you don't. I really don't know who I am at this point. I'd try to see from my own eyes and even ask myself questions like why am i borned as me. I don't know who i should and should'nt trust right now. Every friend is a foe. Bbut every foe is the one who actually bothers to not care for you. And all your friends do are sit there and not hate you. When foes go ard telling stupid things about you and talk bullshitfuck abut you. What Jaja said was true. Your true friends are your enemies.



Hey I really can't stop this.
Annie's gone bollicks.
And no more colourful fonts.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Monday, April 02, 2007


Sunday, April 1, 2007

APRIL FOOLS DAY.

SO TODAY I GOT FOOED ALOT OF TIMES.

and so on.

ANNIE GOT FOOLED THIS APRIL PEOPLE!


Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 01, 2007

ANNIE MISSES HER SARAWR LIKE HELL.
ANNIE MISSES HER SOFIRAWR LIKE HELL.
ANNIE MISSES HER CASSANDRAWR LIKE HELL.
ANNIE MISSES HER NABEE LIKE HELL.
ANNIE HER MISSES HERSELF LIKE FREAKING HELL.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 01, 2007


Annie has done it again.

I woke up a 7 tis morning. Had a sleepless solitude. Was in the midst of thinking of things. Exactly what things i do not have an idea of it myself. But i knew I was thinking of something serious. Very serious. I tell you, Annie cried.

Annie couldn't handle the guilt, the pain, the trouble, the heart and head aches she caused. She got so confused. And like Sarawr mentioned, being grown-up isn't half as fun as growing up. As a matter of fact, being grown-up isn't fun at all. I want to bereincarnated into someone else. If its possible, Iwant to go back in time and apologise to every single thing and every single person I mistook and took granted for.

And don't tell Annie things would get better and that she's only experienceing her down side of life. It doesn't get better at all. Year 2007 has really been down in the dumps. She's been taken over by some deadly disease. And now,she's left all alone. Without anyone telling her the sweet GoodByes and warming Hellos.

Every word in this post has a meaning. Annie doesn't like being grown-up. She doesn't want to go to school. Neitherdoes she ever want to get married. She doesn't want life anymore if what she is experiencing now is a part of this thing called life. People always mentioned that these are obstacles. Fail one, and you fail living your life. Pass one and you get the greatest life of all.

Annie had you. She lost you. She's wasted. She caused you. You don't want her here messing with your mind.

But please. If there is another chance again, Annie would really love to be loved. And she doesn't freaking care if this post sounds so attention seeking. Let it be. Annie does need attention.

I pity myself too. But don't ever pity me. I hate it.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 01, 2007