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Sunday, April 8, 2007

I want to change school. That school sucks. Can I go to a school where I don't know anyone? And leave Bedok North and Bedok Town Sec out of question. So many in Damai too. Mom, can I change school? My friends don't need me anymore. I just ruin their lives. Please mom? If you don't want to change my school, can I get myself expelled? Please? All we have to do is just buy new uniforms. If you don't want to buy them for me, then its fine. I'll buy them with my money. I'll save money okay? And when I have enough for the different books they use and the few uniforms I need, will you please change my school? Im really having problems there. Daddy, you wanted to move house right? Can we please do so earlier? My friends still don't know about it. I want to move and don't ever tell my friends there. I'll just disappear from that school okay? Please mom? Please dad? Even better, can I run away from home? Can I? Just please? Can I live with granny and move house too? Id be contented with that. I'd still be happy even if you don't send me money. Just don't call granny's house ever when I've moved. You're the reason I want to run away. So much for friends and family. Oh and I can goto Broadrick Sec too. I don't know anyone there right? And it's jut beside granny's house. Please please. Granny, come let me live with you. Convince my parents please granny. Tell my parents to not send money. Tell them to not visit me. I don't want to see them at all. And granny if you don't want me, just send me to that place for naughty girls. I'm so naughty you guys hate me isn't it? I'm so nauy my friend feel uncomfortable going out with me. I'm just plain big trouble. So just kick me out of the use. Just do so. I'll go live with Daddy's side. They're as "NAUGHTY" as me aren't they daddy? So that makes them family.

I have no connection with my family! Everyone sits together as a family. Even that baby boy. And all I o is sit in front of the laptop all day. They piss me off with one word and I'll just drag myself up to my room. There's nothing sad about it. It happens everyday. Its daily drug. I wake up and go school. Come home late and just sit in front of the computer all day. Mom comes home, and I avoid her every night by just going up to my room. I'll lock myself up in the room till I sleep. And t just starts over. Im dropping Interact Club. I don't care if Wei Kai drops and makes me VP. If I can't even Interact with my friends properly, what' the use of being the VP in Interact Club. I'll go see Mdm Norain tomorrow morning. I'm really needing conselling. I need t badly. I'll talk to Cik Sahara too. Maybe even to my mom. Just maybe. I don't feel comfortable with my mom. I'll just stick to Mdm Norain and Cik Sahara. Probably Fate too. He'd understand me when I cry. I just hope I don't cry when I talk about this to these people. What the fuck am I saying? Im so going to cry. But I still don't want to.


imgoingtoslitmyselftonight.darlingdontmissmewhenidie.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Sunday, April 08, 2007