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Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Okay I just woke up. And I'm freaking cranky. The world is a cunt. And the computer is a prostitute laaa! I don't want all you fucking msn-ers to send me that fucking "photo-album" virus then get mad at me cos I cursed the fuckshit out of you. Then you have the cheek to deny i was virus?! Your mum must've hated you geek! Walao! Im chattig with Sofirawr and the msn jammed? Fuck things laaa!

My parents are pissing me off too (: Mom sits at the com and wants to use the comp and watch AI at the same time. I changed the channel and she gets mad!? Walao and i changed back o find out JDI finished. THANKS MOM! BIG HELP!!!

And now, Sofirawr's being a darling counselling me. I really don't want to cut my wrists anymore. My friends worry too much. And my dearest friend doesn't want to feel so dear anymore. I miss my old Jaja. I thought the hug we had would save it all. It just makes me drad for more.

So then my parents bug my life again. For goodness sake, i don't want to listen to you! I'm wearing headphones here! Yes I know JDI is on tv! Walao! Don't you see my scrunched up eyebrows!!!

200 CAN SUCK COCK LA! WALAO!
I NEED A FRIEND. A TRUE FRIEND WHO WOULD WATCH ME CRY!

I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS.
I DONT WANT TO CUT MY WRISTS AND CRY.
I DONT WANT TO BLEED!
MY FRIENDS WONT WORRY ANYMORE.
IVE CAUSED SHIT IN THIS WORLD.
I WONT CONTINUE THIS.
ANNIE HAS LEFT THE BUILDING.


You know Alyff, my heart sank so deep and it wouldn't come up.
What you said this morning repeatedly just breaks me piece by piece.
"Dris come back for me okay. Don't come back for anyone else."
If she means so much to you, I guess I should learn to open my eyes and move on.
Dris is a friend. And I don't want to spoil it for you like some people do.
I was smiling when I saw you smile. It just attracts a smile on me when you smile.
And when you said those words, I almost cried okay!
And you said it so many times too, Alyff.
And you sounded very professional laughing an giggling making it sound very easy for you.
Damn Alyff, I really want it that much.
I just hope Jaja would be there to hug me and tell me whats right when I cry tomorrow.
Jaja please. He's your bestfriend.
You understand him more. You understand everyone more. Make me understand please.

Tashah so melodramatic la. Stop it eh?
Wednesday, April 04, 2007